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||[Jul. 25th, 2010|10:45 pm]
TODAY THE OWLS COME
Update on my weekend, Inception (skjdhjdhgasjhas), Kat's bday party, etc. will be forthcoming... tomorrow. After sleep. This meme is all I have enough brain for right now. |
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See, I'm a weird Scorpio. Scorpios are supposed to be kind of manipulative. All the traits normally associated with a Scorpio - being ~magnetic~ and attractive and intelligent and bold and temperamental - are made for making people give you what you want. Scorpios are first and foremost about Scorpios, about standing out and being the one that everyone sees first and remembers longest. Scorpio is the love of the exotic, the sign that's exciting, the sign of someone who catches your eye and knows how to hold your gaze.
In one sense, I am that way. I like standing out. I know how to make people like me on a first impression and how to get what I want when it really counts. I'm a good leader and good at making people listen to me. But I miss out on the manipulation. I'm terrible at it. I am not ~wild and passionate~. When it comes to love, I'm cautious. I'm not temperamental. I hold my feelings down generally, and try not to use their display to get what I want. I find it distasteful, and generally prefer being stoic to being wildly emotional.
And "lies but doesn't pretend"? What does that mean? I do pretend. Pretending is, in fact, the hobby that eats up most of my time right now. Since I was a little kid I've spent my free time happily pretending.
Maybe it means that a Scorpio will not pretend to love you, but they will lie to make you love them. They won't pretend interest in you when they have none, but they will lie about themselves to seem more interesting to one in whom they have interest. But then, isn't that pretending, too? What is the difference here between "lies" and "pretending"? I love to pretend; but I hate to lie.
And how can a Scorpio be both fearless and a liar? Most of the time, lies imply cowardice. Saying a Scorpio just isn't afraid to lie is a loaded statement; are they lying because they're not afraid of the cultural stigma against lies, or because there's a truth they're too frightened to admit? A truly fearless person wouldn't be afraid to tell the truth. Either Scorpio is amoral or a coward. Neither of which I think I am.
Basically, this list of traits describes a person who is outwardly bold and confident. Someone who stands at the center of a crowd with all eyes on them, telling hilarious jokes and dancing all night and making everyone with them wish they could bask in their attention; someone whose arguments sway other people, someone who laughs off injury. But at the center, they are someone not terribly secure. They're dependent on the love of other people to validate their behavior. They're really laughing to cover something up. They talk and joke and laugh but guard themselves carefully, because while they're very good with other people they're not particularly good with themselves. They worry that the limelight will leave them and no one will love them anymore.
....of course, this is a stupid meme from a free dating website. I don't even believe in astrology. And even if I did, this list of traits is shortened, badly phrased, and does not take into account a single one of the hundreds of other things that make up a personality, according to the stars. It is, in essence, something I am reading far too much into, and shouldn't have wasted a precious half hour of sleeping time analyzing.
And it's not to say that Scorpios suck. I just have trouble understanding sometimes how I can be one. I carry enough of the traits to make it work, kind of; but not enough that the sign is any kind of good description of me. You say "Scorpio" and people hear "You will fascinate me;" but I'm just not that fascinating. Or that interested in being fascinating. I am neither an addictive personality, nor that interested in being addicting. So I fail the number one descriptor already.
IN CONCLUSION: This is a silly meme and a silly list and I am a shit Scorpio, and I would not want to be friends with the person this list describes. And now I'm going to sleep.
( A second meme! This one is kind of amazing.Collapse )